Risk everything, or gain nothing.

I guess my weight loss really starts showing.
Today, the big boss of our firm invited me in his office to explain something to the board of Directors.
One of the directors laughed I had to stop loosing weight, or I was going to loose my pants.
They all laughed for about a whole minute...
It's one way to break the ice... :-)

This morning, I bought an apartment...
A huge step, but a good one, I think. Or I hope.

"Thank you for taking me to see this," he said when we left the movietheater.
It was the nicest film-compliment someone had ever given me.
He understood my fascination with the characters, story,...
This feeling of shared understanding is overwhelming...

Again, it has been ages. 

Anyway, still alive, still doing all the same things I did 6 months ago. Still working at the same place, still happy single, still writing movie and film music reviews, still a huge Doctor Who-fan (the episode of last Saturday made me cry like a baby - I love Donna! - however, curious to see what Moffat will have in store for our Doctor whose name is still hidden in mystery  - damn you, Rusty! you made us curious!), still...me I guess.

The day after tomorrow I'm again heading to the States. I have a bad cold, antibiotics don't seem to help, so hope my head won't explode during the flights. 
This time, the tour brings us to the big cities of Eastern USA (NY, Washington DC, Chicago, ...) 
Really looking forward to it, but nervous as hell of course... It'll be great, though. It simply has to be. 
And now there's a friend accompanying me, so that's nice too...

So, a new LJ start. Let's hope I'll manage to keep up :-)

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not so big a surprise...

don't be intimdated by its size - it doesn't take a lot of time ... :-)

just copy/paste and answer the questions in a comment :-)


1) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
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2) What was your dream growing up?
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3) What talent do you wish you had?
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4) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
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5) Favorite vegetable?
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6) What was the last book you read?
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7) What zodiac sign are you?
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8) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
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9) Worst Habit?
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10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
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11) What is your favorite sport?
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12) Do you have a Negative or Optimistic attitude?
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13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
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14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
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15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
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16) Do you have any pets?
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17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
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18) What was your first impression of me? (hmmm...careful!)
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19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
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20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
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21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
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22) What color eyes do you have?
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23) Ever been arrested?
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24) Bottle or can soda?
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25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
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27) What's your favorite place to hang at?
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28) Do you believe in ghosts?
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29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
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30) Do you swear a lot?
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31) Biggest pet peeve?
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32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
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33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
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35) Do you believe in God?
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36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?
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wow, again, it has been ages!
Still alive! Still around even, just a lot of things to do.
Still working in the same place. Every day, while I sit at my desk, I think: "hell, tonight I'm going to write an application letter and just be done with it", but then after 10 hours, I get home and I'm just so tired and drained.

Christmas is coming, perhaps my favourite time of the year. The tree, the little lights, the christmas carols...:-)
And New Year! Time to make some resolutions... like writing again more often in my LJ.

well... I'm back from my 20 days in the States, and boy, I loved it!! I so want to go back!!!!
I'm even thinking about just quiting my job and just heading over there... or perhaps - a safer option - I could just start by looking for a job on the internet and then head over there ;-)...

Anyone a good idea where to start?

it's getting closer and closer...
Three days to go, and I'm off... to the other side of the world.
I must confess I'm rather scared about taking the plane on my own (I haven't been in a plane for avout 10 years!),and I never went camping before, so I kinda imagine the worst at the moment... but then, the trip itself will be fantasic (I've watched too much Dr Who New Series 1 lately), the landscapes overwhelming, and I will probably have some great stories to tell if  when I get back!

oh, and I booked my ticket to Alcatraz - coudn't miss that one!

and although the story sometimes just seemed to "stand still", that finale... wow!
I cried and cried and cried...

I HAVE IT!!!!
I know what to do this weekend...

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I got a new mood theme - all credit to lambietoes.
I like it so much I just felt like posting something...

oh and family dinner went just fine...

tomorrow will be a tough day... For my grandparent's sake, there's going to be a little family reunion... I haven't spoken with my aunt and uncle on mother's side for about six years...
It's a very complicated situation, so I won't bore you all to death with it, but it's just - it'll be tough to see people again who have been so cruel, who have blamed me their problems and have tried to turn my brothers and grandparents against me...

it's at time like this, I wish I didn't have to bear it on my own... but that's life!

He has a girlfriend - that stupid git!
Why couldn't he just say so on Tuesday??
I feel so utterly stupid, although I know I shouldn't...
It's like I recieved a message from a totally different person! He said "he was suprised by my message and probably had to tell me he lives with someone..."
WTF ??!! I told him Tuesday I was going to send him a message AFTER he had agreed to go and have a drink!

I don't understand, I really don't...

I feel stupid (but I already said that - sorry...) and ugly and just blah!

And now I'm going to shut up.And just forget. Again.

OMG - I feel like a bumbling teenager!
I did it! For the first time in my life, I did it ! I asked someone who I hardly know, just met briefly a couple of times if he would like to go for a drink, and he said yes!
It's not that I haven't gone for a drink with a boy/man before, but that was just a friend - now, it really is, well, not yet a friend, just someone who I think might become "a friend"...

And I had been thinking about asking him for a long time, and now this evening (I had to work till 10 pm - he was there too), the opportunity just presented itself... I had no cold feet, no goosebumps, the words just left my mouth, and "it felt good" ;-)...

I have his mobile number, so now I have to send him a message (I had to leave rather fastly to catch the last train). I briefly discussed this with my bro and he's convinced I should wait till Thursday to send him a message, for otherwise, I'm too "assertive" and "desperate"...

Is this the way it works? Do you have more experience with things like this? Should I wait? Or just tex him tomorrow...(well, Wednesday)... ?

haha, a nice little feature on LJ, this "writer's block" thing! this way, I'll be perhaps more inclined to update my journal...

So how did I spend my summers when I was a kid?
Both my parents were working, but that was allright. I remember in the morning, me and my brother used to watch French kids' TV (Club Dorothée, with all these programs like Dragonball Z, Bioman, My Little Pony, Jem, Candy, les Chevaliers du Zodiac, ...) - Flemish kids' tv wasn't that developed at the time (no Plop or Piet Piraat, hard to imagine now!).
In the afternoon, we always had lots of friends who came over. We have a big garden, live very near the river Schelde, lots of nature, ... or we went to our friends who lived in a "castle" - more of a mansion, also with a very big garden, lots of places to hide, trees with a treehouse, ...
We played games of hide and seek, or build camps, or went with our bike along the Schelde, and just enjoyed time together...

oh, this is probably not such a good idea - my Peter Pan syndrome is coming back!
Why do people have to grow up and have responsibilities and make stupid Power Point presentations?
I want to go home and just be a kid again...

it has been a strange weekend. It's quite remarkable how life and death, or sorrow and happiness are so close!
The father of a friend of mine died this weekend. He was diagnosed with a cancer little over a year ago, and things have gotten worse realy fast. 
My mother told me the news, while we were sitting in church, attending to the wedding of one of my other friends, whose party I had to go to later that evening.
i still don't understand why my mother decided to tell me the news then and there! Although I knew it was going to happen (last week, I visited my friend and she said her father wouldn't being able to cope much longer), but still, it felt like somone slapped me in the face.
It's rather strange; i was especially sad for the emotions my friend had to go through - she has witnessed her father's decay, changing from a lifely, very active man to a very sick, hardly reconizable "human being"... Her father would never escort her to the altar...

So i was there, crying, while I should be cheering and happy... It made you realise how life just goes on. The world doesn't stop..

I have a new addiction... I'm totally in love with Doctor Who (and David Tennant, I must admit...)
I really must sop watching this - it's almost all I did last days - episodes from series 1 and 2 and even season 3 (on BBC - the episode last night almost made me cry! damn, those hormones...)

wow, I have a feeling it has been ages since I last posted, but I'm still there - sometimes bareley, but as we say in Dutch "Onkruid vergaat niet"...

So, still working in the perfumery branch. Last week, I got my own small office - well, not totally my own, since I share it with a colleage who works part time. I kinda miss the bater with my colleages in the other office (we were three), but on the other hand, it's just so nice to be able to play soundtracks at work ;-) - it almost makes me feel like I'm home!
The perfumery branch still isn't really my thing, but I earn some money - which enables me to go the States this summer!

Ah yes, my trip... I'm really sad dissident_dream can't accompany me, but that's the way it is...
For a moment I thought about not going myself, but then I know I'll regret it for the rest of my life... Now I have the time and money to do the journey - I have no one who's waiting for me here (wow, that sounds sad - it isn't that bad ;-), it's just that I've got "no strings" attached :-)!), and I just keep telling everyone about it (my trip, that is), that I just HAVE to go... :-)

I'm planning to do a trip with Footloose (TrekAmerika) in August and add a couple of days to San Francisco. So... what do I certainly have to visit in San Francisco? Any suggestions?